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thinking out loud is the only way to think i suppose... [Dec. 2nd, 2008|05:41 pm]

So shut up and self medicate, popping pills like its the coolest thing(it's the in thing to do)
Take two at a time and come talk to me, and then in the morning we will see (who's so smart now)
Cut the pain through prescriptions and preconcieved fame, As if they'll even remember your name(in 5 years)
is it to alleviate the pain or just a small price we pay for "fame", i doubt you even realize your friends can see through this disguise(and thats why....)

this is an intervention...

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thinking out loud....Stew can you build on this? [Nov. 1st, 2007|11:37 am]
I'm on the verge, of being someone you'd prefer...
as compared to those boys your so accustomed to dating (that is)...
and don't try and pretend you don't know what i'm saying...
I'm sorry if it seems as though i'm calling you out (cause i'm not)....
It's just that, I'm tired of telling you the things you wanna hear, i'm better straight up, plain and simple...
you may say oh he finally found a spine, but sweety i've just been working up the nerve to come out and say what you've been thinking every day since you left...

 I've got more than just a way with words...though i can still make you shake and shiver with every syllabol...shimmy and swoon with each and every breathe...but's im not just saying the things you know are true...i've got so much more to tell you..so much...so much more
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(no subject) [Sep. 19th, 2007|09:41 am]
 
From the Screen to Your Stereo Part 2
Tracklisting:

1. Kiss Me originally by Sixpence None the Richer, from She's All That
2. It Ain't Me Babe (featuring Sherri Gilbert of Eisley) originally by Johnny Cash, from Walk the Line
3. The Promise (featuring Chris Carrabba of Dashboard Confessional) originally by When In Rome, from Napolean Dynamite
4. King of Wishful Thinking (featuring Patrick Stump of Fall Out Boy) originally by Go West, from Pretty Woman
5. Stay (featuring Lisa Loeb) originally by Lisa Loeb, from Reality Bites
6. Lovefool (featuring Adam Lazarra of Taking Back Sunday and Stacy Dupree of Eisley) originally by The Cardigans, from Romeo and Juliet
7. Iris (featuring Will Pugh of Cartel) originally by The Goo Goo Dolls, from City of Angels
8. Don't You Forget About Me orignally by Simple Minds, from The Breakfast Club
9. Intro (Amelie J'y Suis Jamais Alle) from Amelie
10. Crazy for You (featuring Max Bemis of Say Anything) originally by Madonna, from Vision Quest
11. Head Over Heals originally by Tears for Fears, from Donnie Darko
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(no subject) [Aug. 29th, 2007|12:18 am]
[Current Mood |contemplativecontemplative]
[Current Music |Boston - Augustana]

tonight i made you a mixed CD of all the songs i knew would remind you of me
i chose our favorites and a few you won't remember but i'm sure you'll understand their importance
i hope you hear this and understand..
all these lyrics and witty one liners are words I wasn't confident enough to even whisper 
do you remember, the way we'd spend all night..hoping and praying that this might be it 
the moment we dreamed of forever and always
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(no subject) [Aug. 6th, 2007|01:48 am]

So tonight i lost myself in old photographs of you
it wasn't hard to see the reason that you left me

when beauty is your favorite weapon(mine was always spite) only God can really tell us that what we're feeling is alright   cause i've stared into an empty barrel waiting for the someone to care enough to finally take this heart home

 

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Sometimes my mind wanders late at night.. [Jul. 18th, 2007|01:36 am]
[Current Music |the 5 percent of my brain i'm using squishing and squirming with every thought!]

I can't explain or describe these feelings that i'm feeling
but i feel that it must be said
that although i self prescribe these purple and white pills (causeeverybodyknowsit'stheprettyonesthatkill) 
i'm fucked up in the head but it's better off than dead (canonereallyweighouttheirsituationsoquickly)
I can't sleep, barely eat, waste time wishing anyone one where me right now
some times i'm afraid to go to bed at night, how can i protect everyone else from myself
(isn't that what the deadbolt on my door is for?!) 

If i took your hand
and i take you back to day before you left 
would you see the sincerity in my eyes as i tell you i love you and beg you not to cry
whoever says goodbye's are easy have clearly never seen the way she looks at me
(although watching her walk away is some ways can be taken as a plus) 

i've spit and splattered filthy words of angst and anger at every girl i've ever had half a heart to try to care for
I've made it an art form of pushing everyone away,how can they expect me to stay put when all i've been able to do my entire life is run away....I've seen the sunrise upon the pacific, shed tears into the north atlantic
 still i could care less if i had anyone to comfort me. cause what are words of comfort if you can't seem to bother to see that i'm more than you'll ever be...and it's all that i can be, an ache in your side and a thorn in your heart whats another dolphin in your sea of sharks...if it;s trouble that your looking for you see to have found the right place

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Favorite Starting Line song Ever... [Feb. 6th, 2007|08:37 am]
[Current Mood |coldcold]
[Current Music |The starting Line duh!]

"Saddest Girl Story"

So it's safe to say that we've been here before;
Heart torn out, down for the count and still come back for more.
This lesson is learned too well.
Though, only unlearned by the time your wounds have healed.
Have you had enough?
I guess not because your lips are stuck to his.
It's Time to say enough is enough, you would be so better off.
You love him but tough because it's not coming back from him.
You can't win.
Stop expecting change, he's just a lost cause that you're waiting on.
Take a look around, you could have anyone.
So leave undeserving him.
It only hurts at first.
But then you will find someone to give you everything you want.
Try not to go running back to him.
So it goes unsaid that we've been here before.
Lonely nights and endless fights and sleeping on the floor.
And he's sorry, so the story goes.
It's read and replayed and ends the same way
Stop expecting change, he's just a lost cause that you're waiting on.
Take a look around, you could have anyone.
So leave undeserving him.
Stop expecting change, he's just a lost cause that you're waiting on.
Take a look around, you could have anyone.
So leave undeserving him.
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(no subject) [Jan. 14th, 2007|11:25 pm]
So thats why your still so scared to show your face around 
and thats why he can't stop letting you live it down
In just an instant, you've changed in so many eyes
not because of any action, just because he told those lies
and just think of what would happen if they knew the truth
not just think of what will happen every time they look at you
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Yet another installment to the 3 part saga of our trip to California(you'll enjoy it, or be jealous) [Jan. 11th, 2007|09:07 am]

When we last left our heroes they had successfully managed to make their way back to the motel 6 they began to call home....sorta.....ok not really....we made it back and decided to change out of our michigan garb(embarassed...slightly) and without a throughly depressed alex welker the other three of us made our way to find any sort of restaraunt we could find in our price range...we decided upon Fridays....upon ordering Foody began to express the distaste we all had felt about the lack of attractive young ladies on this here trip so far....so he did the extraordinary and pulled our waiter aside and explained his distaste, hoping for a little guidance into this situation....our wonderful waiter then began to tell us that we happen to be in the worst possible place in California for attractive young ladies..and choose a shitty time to come when it's "cold" (70 and sunny) and the chicks are al at school or indoors...he made a list of things we should do while in the LA area....so we followed the wise mans guidance and so we had our plans for the remainder of the week....on Tuesday we decided to first find a DENNY's(fuck Denny's!) after trying to interpret a latin ladies directions we traveled for an hour finding no such place....it wasnt until myeslf and my quick thinking compadres decided to pull over near a hotel and try ot pick up a free WIFI...because our hotel didnt have wireless internet / internet at all.....but we later located a near by DENNY's(and the truely ironic part about not locating a Denny's was that throughout the remainder of the trip...we must have seen every single denny's across the continental U.s.) at this time we also decided to visit the LAUGH FACTORY (the infamous comedy club in which kramer from seinfeld happened to get in very serous trouble at)on thursday...we then decided to drive down Rodeo Drive and Sunset Boulouvarde attempting to locate possible celebrities and future wives, and essentially doing our part as tourists...we also saw the UofM Cheer team walking Rodeo...after a long eveing we decided to head back to "home" and while or friend foody slept Alex and i played a mean game of fucking GUITAR HERO II (we are the brightest and best of guitar heroes and are absolutely unbeatable...we welcome a challenge anytime any place) alex decided he wanted to shotgun a beer in the shower(so it wouldnt get everywhere) he did it like a pussy, barely pushing it in, so i took one and (like beefeast) decided to do it like a champ and burst the shit out of it wiht my pacifica key, unfortunatly the beer got all over the bathroom and although i chugged like the true champ the is I, they made me laugh so it burned my fucking nostrils and shit....On Wednesday we traveled to SixFlags minus foody and bought season passes to all six flags because a season pass was as much as a single day...we all took badass photos for our Membership...and had a decent day of riding the rides and staring at hunnies...later that evening we went to the Hustler Store with all their naughty shirts and scantily clad ladies and then to Rainbows pizza(a famous pizzeria for rockstars and shit)....but until next time i bid adeu....FOR our final installment in this three part series...the Trip home, The LAugh Factory, and SONIC!!!

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So California Was THE Shit! (If you are looking for a good read i highly recommend this summary!) [Jan. 9th, 2007|10:20 am]
[Current Mood |contemplativecontemplative]
[Current Music |Sowing Season (Yeah) - Brand New]

So mr.welker, foody, and i departed on friday the 29th expecting to drive through to California with out any delays, to arrive on the 31st and pick up ouur other friend shawn who was flying down due to illness. So up until the late evening of the 29th all was going smoothly. Upon entering Oklahoma(fuck oklahoma!) we are immediately bombarded with winds as high as 55 mph, freezing rain/snow and all of it when i'm supposed to drive for the second time...yeah through out the trip it was only my expert driving in unbearable conditions that got us there and back alive. But as i seeminglyu finish my tank of gas and it's time to hand it over to mr.welker, the wind and snow/rain stop all at once...he drives for a small while when we all nearly wet ourselves due to a giant video billboard of Jesus actually being crucified(the whipping, nailing and so on and so forth) we couldn't believe this shit. at that point i rested and we continued on our journey until the next morning, i'm awoke in some small hillbilly-esque mini-mart type place in Texas. It is here that we learn that highway 40(our route until california) is closed in Amerillo(the city we are currently moments away from) all the way to Flagstaff arizona because why?! oh yes they have record breaking amounts of snow..in the Desert!! WTF! so we were forced to take a detour down to 10 through the deserts closer to Mexico. From their we drove no problem until the next evening, we had stopped to eat at a McDonalds outside phoenix, then continue through to the edge of California then get a hotel becuase we couldn't actually check into our hotel till the next day. While driving through Phoenix, myself driving of course, it was deceptively quiet, Foody and i were in watching the road no problem while alex slept...as we mosey along the car in front of us swerves out of our lane, and i look to see why and see a full roll of fucking carpet in the middle of my lane, well that gentleman in front left me just enough time to say, "OH FUCK!" and run over the carpet....during this time my lovely darling of a gigantic CD case was resting in between foody and i, and while we ran over the carpet, it flew down and knocked the car into park....well us being in the far left lane jerk and shuttered across 3 lanes of traffic cutting off countless people at an alarmingly slow pace...me fearing for the worst...luckily we figured the problem and put it in drive and after test our brakes and acceleration till we were content we could continue, we went through till california. After another short drive though California, three hours really seems short when you've been driving two days straight, we had finally made it to our magical motel 6 only to find that the stupid Latin Lady  had lost our reservations.....luckily it was motel6 and we got another room without difficulty. After unpacking we realized that we need certain neccesities, (soft TP, deoderant for stinky alex because he forgot his, and others) we went to the Rite aid to locate such things. after we had located these things we then realized that the boys needed some sort of alcoholic beverage, and although it was my birthday (it would still be a year before i could purchase such beverages legally. ) So Alex and I were in the car waiting for foody to return, when we saw him walking next to a middle aged Latino Fella, we gave our best gestures to foody and soon enough foody had successfully hey mistered for some New Years spirit..two wonerful dirty 30's of BudLight(not our choice, but who were we to complain) after waiting in the airport for shawn we had increased our numbers to 4 and journeyed home to realize that we were far to tired to drink heavily and after 2 or 3 each we went to bed. The next day we journeyed to the Rose bowl in which we shotguned countless beers with our fellow michiganders...although some were from California....we made our way to the game and were in one hell of a mood...the stadium was cool but through out the game i would find my self unable to see because the man infront of me(6'3 280punds) and his family kept obstructing my view of the play. The game wasnt anywhere near the outcome we had hoped but none-the-less we had came and enjoyed ourselves...as we ventured out into the general direction of the car, we found our selves next to a group of kids that could have been older than 7 all chanting the USC Fight song...If you know anything about Pat Foody, then you know that he is the single most competitive person alive...as the sang their little hearts out, Pat turned to them and to what does he respond..."Santa doesn't exist!" It was by far the single most cruel, yet hilarious thing we had ever had the pleasure of hearing.......But now i must go to class....i shall continue our adventures at a later date...............................Next Time..Episode 2: The Laugh Factory and our Jaunt home...
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